Thursday, January 15, 2009

a better man?

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  • Closer - Ne-Yo

Very recently, my Viva results for my Organic Chemistry (Oh, the horrors!) module came back.

I passed.

So did X. (OK, I know its quite obvious, but I still must protect the identities of people I use in my blog posts!) He then said, "Yay! Now I can get my iPhone."

This got me wondering... Normally after I were to pass something horribly difficult, such as Organic Chemistry (Yes, it IS classified under horribly difficult.), I would try to get something out of my parents. Not this time however, I just didn't feel the need to for some reason.

I guess its because I have never fully appreciated the fact that I am blessed with such wonderful parents. I have a good laptop, a DSLR, a PSP. I should not be asking for more at this point in time. Although my phone has gone konkers, the spare phone's working fine and can still take photos, play music, basic stuff. It was then I started to ask myself, why would I want such materialistic items all the time? Was it to show off? To spite others? Or just cause, its fun?

Its probably a little bit of all of them, I would say. Before this (I have no idea when this is, but it must have been quite recent I believe), I would really love to show off my new stuff. New PSP? Must play in front of everyone. New handphone? Must blast the music to show off how powerful the speakers are (They still are. Their battery just dies. Very quickly.)

Now, I hardly bring my laptop out, unless I really need to. I wouldn't bring my camera out either unless I do need to use it. I'll also be quick to share my privileges with my friends, rather than, to put it in a local context, "suan" others. I find myself more willing to help others in areas where I am much more proficient in.

I somehow find myself a changed person in various aspects. I work out more, and much more seriously too. I'll try to help others as much as possible. I'll try to be the life and spirit of a party/crowd. I try not to keep to myself when I'm sad, angry, pissed, or just plain feeling antisocial.

Somehow, I wonder what brings about a change to a person. Does it take more effort from his surroundings, or does most of it come from the person himself?

(I know, this blog post sounds very much like one of my English essays, where I go around and around in circles with no main point. But that's what's special about this blog =D)

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